A Survivor's Guilt .

I just felt at home, home is where my heart is But lately it's been cold, cold, cold hearted Feel as if I know, know as if I feel Feeling a lot of things but you is not one of them (Not one of them, you is not one of them) (Not one of them, you is not one of them) (Not one of them, you is not one of them) (Not of them) Felt a lot of things in my life, it's not you And just cause I feel pain don't mean it's true I mean none of it is, none of it is Known to be a hell of kid, hell of a list of things that are wrong with him It's only him, or at least that's what he thought (Or at least that's what he thought) (That's what I gathered) (That's what I gathered) Why's it only you with me? I don't even want to know why, it's probably you It's only you, when it comes whispering Love me the same way as I love you, is it really that hard? Sometimes I lard on the fact that I hate living That I hate living, (sometimes) Dissociating with the world I'm in Do you want to be friends with me? I hope we can, I don't wanna be alone anymore I don't want to fight the devil with a sword I was tryna find Christ but your not even one of them (Not one of them, you is not one of them) (Not one of them, you is not one of them) (Not one of them, you is not one of them) (Not of them)