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Staring at my ceiling fan Wondering if I can survive this I feel these walls caving in But there's no denying this Why am I like this Will she treat me any different They just say it is what it is But it's not the way I want to live I wish you can understand this In her eyes I don't want to kill The little boy she once knew I put my feelings deep inside Bottom them up till I can't feel no more I'm only so young I shouldn't be liking him this way I know I'm risking everything But it's on the tip of my tongue I get so stuck When I try to say it to your face I'm having these thoughts at twelve And it hurts to force it away Can't you see I'm suffocating myself at twelve I feel my demons creeping up Whispering that I'm not enough It's like a never ending war with myself Pounding my head on the door Till I can't hear them anymore Putting my love on a shelf Just to save everyone else In her eyes I don't want to kill The little boy she once knew I put my feelings deep inside Bottom them up till I can't feel no more I'm only so young I shouldn't be liking him this way I know I'm risking everything But it's on the tip of my tongue I get so stuck When I try to say it to your face I'm having these thoughts at twelve And it hurts to force it away Can't you see I'm suffocating myself at twelve Some nights some nights I struggle to breathe Cause I hold in what I want to scream Sometimes sometimes It's hard to tell you what's on my mind But here's the truth from me I'm only so young I shouldn't be liking him this way I know I'm risking everything But it's on the tip of my tongue I get so stuck When I try to say it to your face I'm having these thoughts at twelve And it hurts to force it away Can't you see I'm suffocating myself at twelve