I Should Probably Go to Therapy

Acouplethousandmilesturns out was notenoughtolearnto letthingsgo The list of all I'dburiedso deep that Iforgotwaslongerthan I'd known I'dconvincedmyself that I was fine,turnsout that I'm a mess Andhurtingthose thattriedto love inspitehasbecomeone of thethingsthat I do best Icouldblame myparentsif thatwouldhelp at all, Godknowsthey didtheirshare Somedays I'mstillangry andfrustratedbut most the time I'm much tootiredto care Myfatherwas anassholeand a liar and I'mterrifiedthat's what I'll become So I'll say "I'm sorry" way too much for all theconvolutedthings I've done Icouldswear Itriedreally hard but I'm not sure if that'sentirelytrue 'Cause noamountoftherapycouldsolvethemotivesbehindanythingI do Man, itsoundsso nice tofinallyheal but I don't knowwhereto start Youmightthink I'm too hard on myself, but if you knew half the shit that's in my heart Acouplethousandmilesturns out not evenclosetooutrunwhere I'm from Thebruisesleftencirclingmythroatwerethickerthan thearsenicin my blood Wasted time Iprayedtofuckinghard butneverheard a thing When all I've felt issilencefor so long, it's hard to know for sure what I believe