AS A CHILD AGAIN

I wish I could live one day as a child again Those days which I lived with peace of mind Living day to day unaware of spiteful stabs When I was clueless of perfidy and disloyalty Unaware of betraying serpents Backstabbing while showing a smile Money was just papers to me For the money they kill or steal I wish I could sleep on my old bed Once I put my head on it I fall sleep I don't overthink I feel peace but now Sleeps is running away from me I can't understand what's going on Moving body with dead heart and brain I don't wanna be someone else I don't wanna be in love again Now I'm gonna be on my own I know I'm lost but I will find the way I was just trapped by the love But I will flay in the sky again My heart was soft clean without scars It turned too dark strange and so tough I looked into the mirror I saw a deformed face Hidden behind a mask The closest people are the worst to you My face is sulky and wrinkled too My heart has hardened like a stone It stopped to feel as it used to do the older I get the more masks I see And everyone is putting the blame on me I remember that when I was younger Everyone was in love with me