Memories

It's jus me and bro on this shi Going house to house gotchu wondering where I am I could scream for help but god won't answer but that's just him I tried to call yo phone 600 times but u gone Never tellin someone else my feelings all they do is me wrong Depression got me fucked up 20 pills in my hands Writing out my wrongs because I can I notice what I do I notice what I did I notice that you never gave a shit To many demons I be fighting i dont got time for this Wishin you was here singing to me like thats the type of shit that i miss Late nights when I was down you picked up my crown Jus for you to bash it on the ground I dont understand the reason why you did me like this So many memories that im finna miss We'll guess what Im up next You had always hated on my music now you mad at this Yo friend over here givin straight neck I know I should tell you that im sorry but im not You the one that played me so I had to play back You say you love this game but don't like when I do it back So why the f*ck you mad That you had played the only man that woulda had your back Now you mad and shit I know I was actin crazy but I been fixin that shit I cant say i did you wrong I cant say its my fault Started expressing my feelings about you on my songs You the reason i cant trust anybody no more We was so happy then you switched up and walked out the door My brain cant take this anymore... Can you feel my pain? I don't know if I'm insane I don't know if I'm alive I don't know if I'll survive Can you see my shame? I still got no one to blame Can you look me in my eye? I am never satisfied Ay, I wear a mask I put on an act I wear a smile on my face and pretend to be ok But if you look closely you'll see that it's a lie The pain is slowly killing me inside I wonder if I'll ever be alright I'm loosing hope, ready to give up the fight I just wanna close my eyes and wish it all away These voices slowly driving me insane Maybe I'm better off lying in a grave I just wanna escape the pain Break free of the chains Be released from this cage It feels like there's a ransom on my heart And my life is meant to be the exchanged Could this just be a teenage stage Maybe im not mentally insane Givin it some till i might be okay God will see im trying and let me live another day