A gift, a curse

Ahh Here's my headspace as of late The heaviness gets harder to contain No matter where I go there's no escaping, no way I lay my truth I speak it in these words The pain that lingers on is the worst This what they call a gift, a curse There's no way I can change it in a day But if given the choice, I'll choose to stay I'll face my fears every single day Life is nothing but a dream A beautiful synchronicity The way it feels the way it seems I ground myself in love peace and light And even in darkness, I am guided I know I'm not just surviving I keep on living until I earn the right to die It don't matter how far It don't matter how hard Life's a game playing tricks all in my brain Hard to say if it's the same Hard to gauge where it all came Saving space and giving grace I'm just tryna save myself, baby