Apologize

I want to apologize Apologize to myself Forlettingpeople getcloseto me that arebrutallybad for my health Forsayingsorry to them, forhurtingme Fortakinga lot of shit andsayingnothing I wasprotectingpeople who didn'tprotectme But I knew If I said no, I'd bereplacedeasily You put up a veil, so Iwouldblame me Thatlasteda long time, thebullshitI couldn't see You are themasterofdistortedReality And I'm not ok now But I will soon be, I will soon be I took off my top layer, the one youcalledshame Ifinallynamed it and I'm not to blame YourNarcissisticlove bombing,breadcrumbing game When Ifiguredit out, Istoodup andstormedout of our play I take my ownadvicenow, thegreatreckoning awake Ithrowmyscarfback and give thefingeras I walk away I waslyingfor you, to make you look good I wasblindsidedand misunderstood AndthosesamePeoplethat I took a lot of heat for Left me when I fell, theyslammedthe door I fell down so far, I couldn't see any light When Ilookedup for you, youvanishedinto the night I took off my top layer, the one youcalledshame Ifinallynamed it now and I'm not to blame YourNarcissisticlove bombing,breadcrumbing game When Ifiguredit out, I got up andstormedout of your play I take my ownadvicenow, thegreatreckoning awake Ithrowmyscarfback and give thefingeras I walk away Allthosetimes I wasthereor you Ended with yourbetrayaland wascreativelycruel I cansmellyour performance The onewhereI'm crazy It took meawhileto see it All thesignswere hazy Mondaystarteda new day Now when itcomesto you, I stay away From you and allpeoplewho arecommittedand ran Toseeingme as theVillainfor myreactionsto your plan I took off my top layer, the one youcalledshame Ifinallynamed it now and I'm not to blame When Iclimbedup, Iclimbedhigher than you Now that I have f*ck you money, you want me back too I take my ownadvicenow, thegreatreckoning awake Ithrowmyscarfback and give thefingeras I walk away