An Old Song

The burn in the back of my throat From the courage I swallowed Isn't anything I thought it'd be I'm in the corner and it's like you never knew me And his hand runs down your neck And I slam the door and find a home in the steps With a cigarette, as he gets into your head And you follow him up the stairs, to his bed I'll tear at my hair until there's nothing left Just to numb the thought of you loving him As much as you loved me Never promise him that you'll never leave, like You left me on that lonely side street In front of a house made of empty concrete Finality, and now you're sharing sheets You'd always want company But not with me anymore You're not with me anymore I'm sinking through the hardwood floor Rotten down to the core You're not with me anymore I feel the drugs in the confines of skin Begin to wear at veins already worn thin With overwhelming abandonment And the longing for things that'll never happen again I'll just make things up in my head So what I've seen isn't what I believe I'll pretend that I never saw you kissing him Convince myself you respect the broken Boy I've become enough, oh, I've become so numb To the pain in my gut and the tip of of tongue That I bite just so you can have your fun I'll find someone else, I'm not the one for you anymore You're not with me anymore I'm sinking through the hardwood floor Rotten down to the core You're not with me anymore You've haunted my head Left my bed an unmade mess It's time I tried to forget The painted pavement, cement The fact that what we had is dead Taken for granted, sunk instead Like stones forgotten, these amends Find peace at the bottom of a riverbed The courage came and went Serotonin's all but spent This is abandonment You've haunted my head Left my bed an unmade mess It's time I tried to forget The painted pavement, cement The fact that what we had is dead, Taken for granted, sunk instead Like stones forgotten, these amends Find peace at the bottom of a riverbed