Angst

Why am I so wary? How did I reach this state? This constant fear that peeks Pumping adrenaline to the brain Feeling the heartbeat pulsing on my eyes Dangerous signs, my senses are overthrown Each day I might be killing myself somehow Anxiety attack It's so hard to breathe Computing several different risk sources Being confronted by every minute awake The bloodline gives one last warning Time runs short Blood pressure rises My skin starts to feel numb Oh god, what is happening to me? We are used to feel untouchable Then death shows up for the first time The innocence dissolves The longer the time spent living our lives More suffering we see I buried the ones I cared the most I don't wanna be next in line Looking for a failure to come Anxiety is taking its toll Guessing what the symptoms will tell Hypochondria is taking control Rolling the dices Breaching the odds Mental health on the verge Self degrading on self sabotage Being aware of the harm Blaming fate for what you do The cycle of guilt repeats