Always Me

I'm not loved I feel disgusting, so fucking wretched A waste of space, so decrepit Can I do anything right? Or am I meant to suffer forever I dare to dream of a reality where I feel loved and free But I know its just insanity I pick myself off of the ground, just to fall back down and bleed Why the f*ck is it always me? I just want to feel alive, or numb, or dead in the dark abyss A change is needed, otherwise I don't have long to live I can't believe that I'm the only one who gives a shit It's always me to them, no matter what I said or did I'm always told, that I'm the reason I'm alone I'm always told, that I shouldn't be so cold I'm always told, that I should let the past go I'm always told, but God! They'll never fucking know! I dare to dream of a reality where I feel loved and free But I know its just insanity I pick myself off of the ground, just to fall and bleed Why the f*ck is it always me? They'll never understand the pain they've inflicted on me I'm so fucking tired of trying I'm better off dead I'm better off fucking dead Why is it always me? I fucking give up Why is it always me? I'm never enough