State Of Mind

Stop please I thought I knew you Do you still think of me Okay I'm sorry I'm very hard on myself I just need someone to understand Anthony youre the problem constantly There's too much going on What if I'm not though There's to much going on F*ck I loved you more than anyone ever has Is this my fault I wasn't there emotionally I wanna be friends But I can't fucking stand you You know I loved you Why do I feel the need to take the blame for everything I don't hate you How how So fast Feels like hatred betrayal and i don't know if I can handle it. But f*ck man I was fucking up This the 4th time must've done Enough Down bad I was pissed off this is your Place and I've said enough I can't help man I was raised up Knew your whole life girl you had it Rough Had a lot leverage but I never let it Hold me down Pick it up rock it don't feel like you've lost it I'm feeling the way that you told me That you wouldn't tell me but you Couldn't help it Cuz you had to tell it And I held it in and my throat started Swelling but I had to get it and some How I get it And I never knew it that'd you'd Actually do it But I'm being stupid you told me to Move on and i just went thru it so I Just been down bad Not into it ya That toxic love will take your heart Away You heard some lies and couldn't break The pain You fight yourself and say it's Complicated I know it's love but you don't feel the Same I don't deserve this I was just feeling The same thing Girl you was just Holding it all in Girl why did you tell me you were all In Cause now I'm just constantly falling like go away And I'm sorry Thats probably coming off harsh And I know it's always been that way From the start So That's prolly why you protecting Your Heart But I had to switch it up I hate that I never would give it up Had my heart on the ground had to pick it up I had some bitches that wanted to hit Me up I Popped a couple of bottles to get me up I smoked a couple of blunts and got Fried asf Had you all in my head and I've had enough If you want my attention girl give it up Cuz I'm done But f*ck man I was fucking up This the 4th time must've done a lot Down bad I was pissed off this is your Place and I've said enough I can't help man I was raised up Knew your whole life girl you had it Rough Had a lot leverage but I never let it hold me down But I need a minute I wanna know if you wanted to finish Cause Sometimes I feel like we ended The quickest And Even though we started off with a Visit We've always been lovers so why did We end it But That's not a reason so tell me what is it Cause I gotta void in my heart need to Fill it But you had someone in your heart And I get it You focused on Someoneyou know you shouldn't Ya You had nobody Please don't go Please don't go Please don't go Please don't go No no no Need you to know I Need you the most Don't run from me From me Don't run Not me Please baby not me Please girl But me baby Not me Please don't go Don't run I'm still me I'm still me But f*ck man I was fucking up This the 4th time must've done a lot Down bad I was pissed off this is your place and I've said enough I can't help man I was raised up Knew your whole life girl you had it Rough Had a lot leverage but I never let it hold me down Me down me down