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I hope With every passing second, the closest to me will defend without a second thought And now I hope With every hanging necklace, you remember what I meant when I refused to take it off And I hope With every single breath, everything that I regret don't show up with a knock Maybe, I hope That I become a man, I see you with a new perspective cause I'm not enough I spent my life, living in a coffin Nails embedded in my hands, my prayers couldn't stop them I justify the violence you gave by giving options I say f*ck it all and lose sight of all emotion You say with a heavy heart, this is where you lost it it The first one to dive in, and the last one to resurface While the clock ticking, your rotary phone ringing Every component will be working on its own Each blade of grass, I knew this wouldn't last With each blade of glass you cut right through my veins Im looking at you too, its always been the same God bless your iris until you find my lady crying in the winter storm of fire Deep breaths to get you out of bed Every morning l recall you say my name the last of my eternal flame Always new elevations with you New experience with you, paid dues I hope With every starry night, you look up at the sky and find me dancing in the light, Baby I hope With every blow of smoke, you still want to hold me even with my dying lungs I breathe, I hope You find the satisfaction, of laying down your shield and sword and entering the castle Know I hope I finally find peace, where paranoia doesn't take the better parts of me One of a kind for you Die for you Make you feel alive for you Try for you Cry for you Lie for you Putting everything that I can to the side for you Down for you Proud of you Miss my pretty lady but I know I'm not the one for you Live for you Strive for you Thrive for you Turning back the time to try again and be with you Once again Hide with you Kill for you Use a 45 for you I know you're not coming back I'll always hold this love for you Who am I to judge you? Who am I to tell you what you can or can not do? You were always meant for more I got to watch you grow your wings I must admit I felt resented I knew you were bound to leave and leave me watching in a seat I thought it was me See at this time I still had an ego Didn't let me see a future without you my full potential Pretty lady you got me thinking I'm going die alone Had a chance to get you back I had you on my phone But I shouted You flinched I knew that it was over 'fore I got my point across I tried to take it back but you said what I do now didn't matter Tried to hold you there explain where I was coming from Nearly four months later I don't think I got it I was egotistical, self indulging, selfish Thinking I deserved the world because I never needed something from it Never going gonna meet another girl that loved me like you Never gonna open my eyes Rather be blind I got some of these lives on me, on me And they're never gonna leave I miss my pretty lady But I have to turn another leaf Feel another heartbeat Least I know I'm human living with my misery Contemplating whether or not this life is really it for me Good until November 2nd That was really it for me Never slept alone For an era had a home Now I sleep in front of stone I hope With every passing second, the closest to me will defend without a second thought And now I hope With every hanging necklace, you remember what I meant when I refused to take it off And I hope With every single breath, everything that I regret don't show up with a knock Maybe, I hope That I become a man, I see you with a new perspective cause I'm not enough