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I'm not okay, even if it looks like I'm doing great It's too hard to carry all of this weight Feel like I'm dead under all of this weight I wanted time to go get some things straight Destroyed all my chances, broke every clean slate Hard for me now to even operate Knowing that I'm about ready to break I'm not okay, even if it looks like I'm doing great It's too hard to carry all of this weight Feel like I'm dead under all of this weight I wanted time to go get some things straight Destroyed all my chances, broke every clean slate Hard for me now to even operate Knowing that I'm about ready to break Suicidal thoughts traveling back and forth through my head Fear of failure taking over, forcing me to watch how I tread Sometimes I feel I might just be better off dead Paging Kurt Cobain, drugs to help the pain Do I wanna keep living instead, keep living instead I cherish all that I've been given, but my life has always been too hidden Quiet man on a quieter mission No one ever came and gave me my props Sitting in the corner, mind on the rocks Contemplating how to get out this box Can't escape cause it stays shut with 3 locks (Ahhh) No it's all in my brain, can't take it no more, gotta switch up the lane Fighting it back and forth, think the cure is cocaine Darker in the core with tainted blood in my veins Shook me outta bed, put me on these meds Pain scale outta 10, always been a 10, spasm now and then Been lost in this gray, equal to a stray but I ain't the prey Lost my right to say, can I really just try and take a break I'm not okay, even if it looks like I'm doing great It's too hard to carry all of this weight Feel like I'm dead under all of this weight I wanted time to go get some things straight Destroyed all my chances, broke every clean slate Hard for me now to even operate Knowing that I'm about ready to break I'm not okay, even if it looks like I'm doing great It's too hard to carry all of this weight Feel like I'm dead under all of this weight I wanted time to go get some things straight Destroyed all my chances, broke every clean slate Hard for me now to even operate Knowing that I'm about ready to break Has there been a change I been feeling kinda strange And a little bit deranged Got the rusty axe and chains And I'm feeling kinda scared I ain't ever held me back Wanna make a better life, rather than relive my past where I Been a slave of my own mind, need to unwind (Been a slave of my own mind, need to unwind) Man All I done is get behind all of humankind (Said all I done is get behind all of humankind) I said I been a slave of my own mind, need to unwind Been a slave of my own mind, need to unwind (Been a slave of my own mind, need to unwind) Yeah All I done is get behind all of humankind (Said all I done is get behind...) Okay Now it's back to my regularly scheduled program bitch Now I'm thinking, I should've never ever gone and let you in Got me monologuing about my boring life, it ain't got no twists Got the blow and we drinking, bottoms up, slit the wrist Yuh (Woah woah woah chill, we ain't really doing that are we) I'm not okay, even if it looks like I'm doing great It's too hard to carry all of this weight Feel like I'm dead under all of this weight I wanted time to go get some things straight Destroyed all my chances, broke every clean slate Hard for me now to even operate Knowing that I'm about ready to break