Love Letter to Suicide / Skipping November

Walk out (walk out) Front door (yup) Never (gonna) Look back (nope) Talking (shit) No more (huh) I can't (what) Believe that (uh) You were (you were) Just a (what) Pain in (what) My ass (tell 'em) Said you (always) Loved me (nope) You ain't (ever) Mean that Where'd my love go Where'd my love go (Where is she) Where'd my love go Where'd my love go (Where is she) Where'd my love go Where'd my love go (Where is she) Where'd my love go Where'd my love go I saw the messages he sends you (mhm, mhm) I know exactly what he wants to do You cut things off so fucking quick it looked so painless Everything you said to me it always sounded so damn brainless (mhm, mhm) Tell me now (right now) Did you ever fool around (aw damn) I was deaf (so deaf) Couldn't hear a single sound (damn right) Now you're gone (way gone) Part of me is so relieved but pardon me I'm sorry cuz that shit is hardly what you want from me I gave you all of me And I thought you did the same But looking back, saw something change Must've felt single in your brain The way you looked at me caused pain There was no love in those damn eyes Ignoring me while we're in bed, too busy texting other guys This is my love letter to suicide Treat it like it's do or die I'm about to lose my mind If tomorrow ain't you and I If you ain't here by my side Just know that I buy my time You wouldn't understand me even if you lived my life This shit be weird I wanna know how we both got here Looking down at my bro, I don't know if he's mad or in fear Let me make this bullshit clear That bitch was fucking nuts Arguing over stupid shit that don't matter Every time I would hear them chatter I would follow it with laughter He kept the peace She made it her mission to always be mean Behind the scenes He told me that she was the girl of his dreams But lately their love hasn't been what it seems That's where it started Now that he's split up he's feeling cathartic Damn she is garbage Heard she don't think of him, he is the opposite I guess he took it the hardest F*ck Now I'm stuck Give a f*ck about traditions Only upside to this bullshit, I don't gotta hear you bitching Saw you switch before it happened, darling listen Just don't call this shit a diss It's a fucking load of laundry and I'm airing that shit Loaded clip To my heart Blast that shit to fucking pieces I thought we would Go far All you needed was a reason Spent your days Going hard Antagonizing me for fun I can't believe I ever looked at you and said you're the one Shit Now I live inside a foreign place Waking up to empty beds, just wanna see your face Constant reminders causing pain The memories I can't erase Need to bathe myself in bleach because your love was a stain I just need to know If you think of me too I just need to know If he's better Cuz I want you to be happy, yeah that much is true Even if happiness only comes from someone new Please don't mention her I don't wanna talk about her Please don't mention her I don't wanna talk about her Please don't mention her I don't wanna talk when I swear to god it hurts I'm skipping November Cuz I can't keep on going Skipping November Cuz without your love I'm hopeless Who's that song about Who's on your mind when you listen Cuz looking at your face, it can't be me I just want to give you all my greatest qualities But every time I tried you acted like you couldn't see Put your glasses on Take those walls down Listen to this song It's only us now You knew that you'd be fine whenever you would leave But you failed to see how much you really meant to me Please don't mention her I don't wanna talk about her Please don't mention her I don't wanna talk about her Please don't mention her I don't wanna talk when I swear to god it hurts I'm skipping November Cuz I can't keep on going Skipping November Cuz without your love I'm hopeless I just need you in this moment