Sunburn

My momma found 3 grays today while doing my hair The stress outweighing happiness the message is clear Just tell em that it's chasing dreams or facing my fears Or really wanting that respect from my peers Keep neglecting the tears Growing up I felt more lesser than equal Mama taught me to think other wise Taught me not to summarize when speaking my thoughts That logic strengthened my heart Teaching me never play it cool when it was weakness I fought Daddy taught me giving up truly just means that you lost It wasn't failure that cost Only when you hanging your head He taught me giving up is way worse than laying in bed and never even trying Tanjiro the way I know my demons fighting Uncle taught me love is pure so keep it tightly And to keep the family close The world is poison happiness the antidote Grandma taught me age should never limit you If it's that worth having then just tighten up your tennis shoes and chase that shit That's the type of shit that always make me sick Knowing that this world would rather give up than prove it Split up when losing Me id rather push right through it keep my chin up pursue at all cost Yeah I took was a couple losses but im still here Raised to chase the spotlight but I still fear Deaf to all the comments but I still hear Just in case they get to me I wanna tell you what I still feel In case I can't escape the coffin may not end like kill bill I wanna that I'm proud of you if you will allow me to Tell you that no matter where we left off I'm devout to you Sorry for surrounding you with thoughts that maybe I no longer loved you like I used to Or hugged you like I used to I shoved you to become the sadder version of you I doctored what I thought I needed where's the surgeon for you Thought I was burdened for you Mama I'm hurting for you I know you saddened but I promise that I'm certain that you Found the person for you Someone to always believe in I used to hear pray for someone now you finally achieved it I can see your happiness and only pray it increases Dad you smarter anyone that ever got they degree in A college lemme stop Your hidden battles pained me but you kept it tucked I love you and respected that you test your luck with raising someone that wasn't yours Manliness down to your core Your type of character is something everyone should adore But until that happens know that yall words are nothing but sound to me Sunburn on its rise and spotlight really tried downing me Demons round the corner I know they close to surrounding me But I don't give a f*ck cause I know my grandpa proud of me nigga