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I wrote her a letter yesterday Told her that I'm fine That I can't wait to come on back cnd make up for lost time The same life I promised her before I'm gonna give her when I open that door They say I'm here to fight their cause cnd that I could die trying I'd like to think their aim is true But I think that they're lying The same life I was living well before I'm taking back soon as I open that door Lord will I live to see that day Deliver me a sign Cause it is only a matter of time Before I lose my mind I'm losing my mind The same life, I was living well before I'm taking back soon as I open that door Cause every day I wake up to this war I load up my gun and I can't tell you what for I wrote a letter yesterday Told her that I'm fine I may not see her ever again But I'm gonna die trying I'm gonna die trying I'm gonna die trying