Bitter Pill To Swallow

Eighteenth June, the only day you didn't hit snooze, Woke up with a smile and left me in blues I knew something was up when the dinner table Smelled of cigarettes while you were crafting fables Think I bet twenty dollars two days back When he said "don't worry it ain't going to wack" That's when I knew he knew, even he's reading you And your friend told me too, now I'm burning your shoes Burning the jacket that you gave me Burning the disc we burned but keeping the black Mercedes I kept some suitcases on the front porch Fruit-flavoured lipstick and a blowtorch And as a parting gift pick up pieces of my heart A picture of Jesus and your fifth grade art Take all the adjectives you screamed at me, take all of your letters We'll talk at the bus stop, see you never Why do you keep showing up everywhere I go Is it a coincidence or do you follow For you it's yet another bitter pill to swallow  But for me it's a choking hazard you and I know Photo frames at the back of my mind are breaking Voodoo'd mood cuz suddenly my head is aching Now I atrophy while the cold is grabbing me Lost track of my sanity, these thoughts are almost family It was supposed to be me and you till the end of time But you stopped the pendulum didn't know introversion was a crime Guess you're going through your life's journey with someone else Guess it won't be me taking you through heavens and hells And the penance I dealt means I need medical help Just like severing hands, that's how the severance felt Glass shattered in the living room into a million parts I go to pick them up - but it's my heart Dramatically fall to the floor and cut my knees And my shoulder twitches as I feel a breeze Something's warm and welcoming, safe yet unsettling I have to give in although I know it's meddling Why do you keep showing up everywhere I go Is it a coincidence or do you follow For you it's yet another bitter pill to swallow  But for me it's a choking hazard you and I know ramblings :)