I See Dead People

I really ain't all that smart I'm hung up on the past Why did I do this and why didn't I do that? Why am I dreaming of getting a little sleep? Why am I thinking that life is just a dream? If that's the case, please wake me up I'm always tired, i fucking suck At everything I do, I'm going nuts I don't know trust, I don't know lust and worst of all I don't know love I had to take the mirror down, I couldn't see who I was I had to see who I am and I think I've seen enough Cause who I'm gonna be's ashamed and in disgust Of the hollow faceless carcass to make a point without a purpose It's disturbing, I'm unlearning, readapting to evolve And then involve myself in where I step whenever we're around Making something out of nothing because my minds a blank slate Probably because of all the drugs that I used to take Or probably post-traumatic stress but whatever it's to late Either way, you better be careful-n-think before you paint I don't deal well with criticism, good or bad is all alike I know who you are and I don't care about you at all, all right? This apathetic attitude is what engulfs me in light I'm not surprised, it's just I don't expect anything in or from life I see dead people I see dead people I see dead people I see dead people Whoever said we're all equal can go f*ck themselves I put more effort in a single step and my gestures Just so if you start to go down, I always got a little extra To give away to you so you have to strength to step up I've made some poor life choices, I didn't ask for this And now everybody needs me, but who am I to them? And who do I have? Certainly not everybody It's just me, myself and I and no ones welcome to the party A little paranoid? Maybe But hey, can you blame me? I've been backstabbed so many times That I ain't feel it lately Sociopathic? Who's to say? Damn, I know my intentions Sorry for attacking first, I can be real self-defensive I have to protect the little light of mine, just don't be so reckless I know you young but just think about it for a second Instant gratification disappoints whatever comes after Because it leaves you wanting more until there's no more, then after You have to ask for it then only play a slave to a master Do what they say for a feeling that don't last long What do you have to offer? To one who has all there is If it's a piece of mind then you should mind your own biz Gain some peace of mind realizing there's nothing to gain And that feeling that you're seeking can be permanent I see dead people I see dead people I see dead people I see dead people Suffering alone in silence It's really kind of beautiful When I'm not alone You're who I do it for Reaction to my presence Love, hate, it's all the same I thank you, kindly You alone, give me reason You made my whole day Noticing me Noticing You