Psychotic Survival

My own life never goes my way Nobody knows me like you do Got too many people to repay Nothin' dat you ever said was true What once was love is now just a memory It's faded into a false reality I know you hate me and had to quit I get it too with all my shit Mentally fucked with since the start I've been broken missin' a part You fucked with me, my health is gone My mental state now just feels wrong I lay in bed and wish I was dead Not a care, since life ain't fair I'm good as gone, no one would see There's burning flames inside of me Lurking death within my soul I have lost all my control Sadness owns our whole generation It's like a fucked up bad creation No one knows just how to act We all just deny the past We all wish that life moved faster Fucked like those who have a master Emotions made my insides fried An inch from a car I should've died Scissor cuts are on my shoulder I miss her man I just wanna hold her I'm not alive I'm just survivin' They aren't the same but I'm sure tryin' Got no support not even family They'd rather bitch than try to help me Got turned away by the one I loved Cuts on my arms because I was stunned When I was a kid I used to shout Like the time I should've drowned If I was there id surely die Nobody would bat an eye Been alone for my whole life Forced to deal with all my strife If you hear this I hope you know Yeah I love you but it won't show I don't have a lot to say I just can't live life by my own way Kinda done but ill keep tryin' Getting by with excessive cryin' Living psychotic Depressed and ironic Shit goes down too hard Now I think it is time I'm like a retard And my life is a crime I'm humble like Kendrick Far out like Arabic I'm sippin' and crashin' And trashin' and trippin' My face is in pain and I live in the rain All this shit feels wrong F*ck you all I'm gone