Dark Clouds

(Yeah) Weatherin' the storms where I got one eye on the clock The other on a mission where I hustle through the block One too many failures make a pessimist drop Staying optimistic but realistically, I cannot Burst this bubble yet I’m feeling locked up in a box Took a step outside my comfort zone but I was caught By anxiety and all the stresses so I thought If I close my eyes that it might stop The nightmare goes on when the doctor told my family Your son may have a cardiac abnormality called cardiomyopathy The reading shows a bundle branch block If he’s lucky give him 10 year for his heart to rot What was the kid in me suppose to do How do I react, will I ever go to school A decade later and the heart in me still beating strong 5 years on and I’m stilling proving all them doctors wrong Hi, my name’s anxiety a pleasure nice to meet ya In your darkest times is where I’ll greet ya Even in your happy days I’ll come around and feature My class is now in session, you’re the student I’m the teacher And I’ll teach you everything that you don’t wanna know You can’t face a crowd no more so better stay at home Overthinking thinking that your living in a hole Cause your heart is sinking to rock bottom down below Depression kicking in so now your feeling kinda low The stress suppresses all emotions now you’ve lost control You were born a lonely child destined to be alone Wish you had a honey but no ones buzzing the phone You were craving love but now your appetite is empty Trouble sleeping all the tension made your eye bags heavy The conversations in my head can become very messy Because I was scared to take the world on but now I feel ready So don't tempt me Doctor doctor please can you take pain away I’ve been hurting taking days off not for holidays I’ve been feeling really stressed cause now my job don’t pay Was afraid of death now you can catch me counting days I didn’t wanna say it but that’s just the way it is My mental health deteriorated my purpose to live A constant battle in my head now every day’s quiz like Why you acting bitter homie, why you such a bitch Why you tryna flex on me like you ain’t even rich Why you wear a shirt like that when you ain’t even ripped How you think you’re useful when the world wants you to quit I thought I was onto something, someone flipped the switched Someone is to blame for this, someone living in bliss Insecurities piled up I swear I made a list I was always blaming someone for the life I dread Till I realized it was all in my head