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Well I guess shorty ain't reciprocate my love after all Now my path involves lashing off when I don't have enough of adderall To keep myself from doing bad alone Well that barely helps, 'cause you know my demons like to tag along When I'm trippin', as if it ever made that much of a difference This is by far the most intense state of being I've ever been in Everything feels so vivid, contradictin' cause I barely try to pay attention Unless we're talking 'bout my feelings for her, in that case you know that I'm hurt My past convinced to me I'm cursed I might crash if I feel one more curve Just like that, now I'm flying with birds The right pack, I'm excited to burn Light dab, now I'm actually swervin' Slight dash, through the bad I've been earnin' All because of my mistakes, but who set the template for me to be great? It wasn't my mother, it wasn't her mate Ain't have no big brother, ain't have me no dame And outsiders got the audacity to be asking me why did I change How could you expect my soul to stay the same? I'm still a youngin' tryna find a way With no direction, still hope for progression, long as I pick up the pace I'll lessen my usage of her name in vain, but what can I say? It got me thinking bout all the orange that's up in my face Swear it's a simulation of her taste Bet you forgot I got to feel your glaze Yeah just for a second, but that's all it takes Now I refuse to cut off any traces, I wanna feel it all in my veins Let the blood travel up to my brain, keep me high while these drugs do its thing Chasing a numb, that's that dangerous love 'Cause if you ain't making me cum, then how could you claim you're enough? Well I am not making this up when I say that I'm probably never ever gonna feel love again Luna, you don't want me? Damn, that's okay I will never forget the good and bad that you did for me babe What do you feel When you're all alone? Is it hurt that burns inside? What do you feel When you're all alone? Is it hurt? Does it burn on the inside? If so, tell me why Everything, and I mean everything That I emotionally attach myself to eventually ends up falling apart Leaving me lost and damaged, as if I was never gone from the start I'm a loner, I'm a goner, I'll be suffering here for much longer Here in this cycle where there is no end Still can't seem to make amends with my trauma Those seem to be the roots of my problems Causing me to lash out while I decay here in this autumn I'm my own demons to be slaying so don't be shocked when I finally go out and solve them And that's not a caution, no that's a promise 17