Don't Wake Up(050219)

Wallowing when I spawn I watch the scars on my arms add up They're all just receipts for the regression Hurts to confess I've progressed less than expected My skeleton's been shredding from the depression These sad moments, I lack waves of exceptions To release every feeling that I have kept in Steadily trembling, excess messy stepping Don't be so vexed, I'm not tryna be interesting Damage or be damaged, and I hate being the damager Either way, pred or prey, I'll still be seen as animal Being seen as a mystery never ever did shit for me I know you ain't into me, you just represent infamy That's why I put the pain in paintings And every woman I know puts the maze in amazing I'm not enough so I'm nodding off, drinking with Satan Smoking spliffs till I'm brainless...it ain't shit But I've only been growing older, I feel the mold on my soul Lotta shit I don't condone still managed to take control Oh it left me so broken, still tryna restore to whole When I thought I finally did, I fell in another hole That's how the cycle goes Will it ever end? I guess we'll never know No need to sit and pretend, just need to let it go I keep from telling my friends because I'm dead alone God was alone for an eternity, so I will never need no one to care for me Heaven's gates these days are looking like a parody I'm set to break free cause my demons split a chair with me And watch me sink freely as the salt water buries me No time to wonder if I'm scared or not This salt seeping into my skin's a sensation I don't care to stop So if I learn to swim while I'm sinking, I'll swim closer to the parallel paradox So that I don't wake up Don't wake up Don't wake up Don't wake up Don't wake up Don't you ask what I've been contemplating You ain't ready for that conversation Don't you ask what I've been contemplating You ain't ready for that conversation Don't you ask what I've been contemplating You ain't ready for that conversation Don't you ask what I've been contemplating You ain't ready for that conversation