Lavender (feat. Sarah Cordova)

Quit the flinching, just look away Know my innocence it’s been took in vain No intervention, I’m shook, afraid I won’t get forgiveness for crooked ways I’ve been moving No GPS, I’ve repeated steps That just led to way more consuming of myself Those demons always knew how to belt me up with the nooses So now I hang by a needle, tangling from the thinnest of the threads Felt like it was a game ’til I felt the pain from it and I’m feeling it again Making me think it’s not gonna end Please in a blink, be gone with the wind I cannot sink, I already did I would just stink and wash up with fish That explains the faces ‘Cause it’s always been myself I’m facing Only I could smell the fragrance ‘Cause it hides behind the shell I’m breaking But they never noticed the cracks They believe I’m a gifted exhibit If they got ahold of my past They would leave in a timid position Plus they’d be way too triggered to listen That just means don’t commit to their interests But the pressure breathes on me and I always give in Showing disinterest to the gods while I’m blitzing Into the mist, ‘cause in the midst of it all I won’t be missed at all And I still (And I still) And I still (And I still) And I still find And I still find a way To crop my face out the frame I don’t wanna be On display Please, don’t look this way I’m too ashamed No, no It’s just that I didn’t choose To end up this confused Again we lose I couldn’t mold into This mask of lavender This mask of lavender This mask of lavender This mask of lavender This mask of lavender This mask of lavender This mask of lavender