Epithet

For a moment you thought you'd found yourself something beautiful But then you saw her in the wrong light and suddenly You didn't want her anymore You're not happy but you've always been good at playing pretend Searching for an apartment comfortable enough to die in Once you've lost your kids, and Laid over you is the smell of smoke That wide-eyed child they once knew is gone The world chewed a hole through you The world had chewed the grace out of you Is it worse on my part alone Does it matter I feel it in the right way I don't mind learning from your mistakes So I'll write your wrongs I swear I'll be better than you were to me Fighting for control is not love Neglect and jealousy is not love That's not love That's not love Fighting for control is not love Neglect and jealousy is not love That's not love That's not love Fighting for control is not love Neglect and jealousy is not love Is it worse on my part alone How it shatters I feel it in the worst way I'll find my way out of this water somehow By drowning me, you taught me to swim And I'll always be thankful for that Oh, you are not my father and you never were