First Session (feat. Tania Frolova)

Reality makes me sober I've tried to heal But it lasts no longer than my next defeat This world has no borders I wander here Who could remind me how to live again Yeah! Sometimes I act crazy I wish I could not care I wish I could just smell daisies This is my burden I can't bear I am trying my best I swear I am trying to be perfect in relationship But it's hard for me to keep afloat this ship So much splits and inner hits I can't find the solution that fits Inside I am just a scared little kid Trying to do what I always did End a war The war that started when I was born Which is a very long time ago I wish I could just show people my pov How it is How it feels How it kills And it always steals Steals everything that is most precious to me! Reality makes me sober I've tried to heal But it lasts no longer than my next defeat This world has no borders I wander here Who could remind me how to live again Sleepless nights I can't have peace at night Antidepressants Why every peace needs to have a fight Helpless sighs I wake up depressed far from the light I need those highs This life space is getting really tight I'm wise But I can't trust me so hide I hurt people, sometimes Hurtful words like my empathy died Suicide lines Splitting makes me a bad guide No compromise Wait, blood on my hands dried Scars on my thighs At this point death is my bride Reality makes me sober I've tried to heal But it lasts no longer than my next defeat This world has no borders I wander here Who could remind me how to live again Our time's up I know! I feel gentle tap You listened to this show! Wow I'm glad! Maybe I won't feel below It's something I never had I was always this low Which is really bad Maybe happiness will come tomorrow I hope I'll keep out this sorrow Sometimes I feel really hollow But maybe there's a road I can follow Until the beautiful tomorrow