Replaced

I was grownup since I was five cause of my trauma I was locked in this cage alone, it was drama I feel like my childhood never came and never went All the people I met, but I'm still not worth a cent What happens when she leaves for someone else I don't know but it's hard to breath for someone else Hard to see I was replaced, like a piece of used clothing I am a person too and I deserve to feel something I want to find someone find someone loving I promised her damn what am I becoming Without love I feel cold, it's numbing The source of my closure is gone I know what it'll cost So I'm drowning my throat with pills I use and exhaust All my resources now I'm alone playing Robert Lee Frost I was thinking when I was sinking down with all my pride I must not think about the past but It'll be left denied I know but what else we have when we're alone inside You think I'm happy Are you real You see only one side Coin has two sides, you should check the other one Free me of pain same pain that keeps me from the loved one I'm walking you through steps of my own sabotage People will need to give me a heart massage I'm slowly dying fading away a death montage You see this is my last and only barrage I was grownup since I was five cause of my trauma I was locked in this cage alone, it was drama I feel like my childhood never came and never went All the people I met, but I'm still not worth a cent So What happens when she leaves for someone else Hard to know but it's hard to breath for someone else It is Hard to feel fine, when I'm pretty much jealous I want to feel good and strong but my mind won't let us I don't know but maybe that's why she left us I'm locked in here so alone she was precious So I realize this is the end that it got us I created a place of sadness it's infectious Then I wake up yesterday was not a dream I condone it At least my mind did and I realize I have grown A big stone in my chest and now I can't breathe I am losing oxygen I can't speak I'm falling asleep Now it's done, my life flashes before me I'll sleep Alone in this dark hole they're putting me in I'll weep For myself because no one else will, I'll be replaced No one will care that I was disgraced by a toxic waste This society's doing everything so fast in haste They don't care and they'll act like I was erased