Stable

Why can't I be stable Stable like a tree Why can't I have some space Why can't just have some space Why can't I have some time to breath or to breath out When I'm happy I just can't write Maybe this is a curse in all might I'm getting lost and it happens so fast The only spell I can cast Is put it in the past In last song I mentioned splitting It has a meaning I am on a constant border Borderline personality disorder World in just two sides Seeing things in two lines Good and bad Black and white Happy or sad It's a constant fight Love her or not I don't wanna boycott It's not defense It's a fence All those possibilities you can't see Choices, impossibilities you once did So I am far from free She was my light, before it hit But now I see only dark it flick It's a big fright quick I need a spark I have a match called Benzodiazepine I also need more Sertraline Now we have a fire But I can go higher Add some mood stabilizer No worries I have a supervisor Let's not forget anti psychotics Without them I'd be a little more psychotic Little more paranoid It's a reality steroid No more blood baths I can see the aftermaths I am dissociating Which I am associating With being in pain Do you feel the same? A lot of people do Damn, what are we going through Stable Stable I want to cry, even when I don't know why All this makes me question myself Who am I to put this on a public shelf? Crying over what was, even when it was the worst Is it just my inner secret thirst? These are the two sides splitting you see? Those are the many splitted faces of me! The person I have problem with is me Yes my problem has a solution and it is me But you girl messed up too it's true You weren't there, when I needed you You walked by like nothing was going on It hurts to talk to you! said the last one Words moments like this can break me And my body is drowning in a Red Sea Splitting is seeing the world in extremes It can be triggered even by my dreams So welcome here nothing is real With this, it is hard to heal Just don't do what A did I'm her public enemy her fiend I have other song for that But wait 'cause it's not yet out Stable Stable