Kinda Hopeless

Been feeling kinda hopeless Together but never fixed Wondering where I'll ever find the upbeat remix Feeling kinda homesick Feeling like I've been tricked Into thinking that I'm never gonna feel it again But the feelings crept in They crept back in I can't tell how long it's been since I've let some lightning in Let the rain wash away all the mistakes I'd always make But healing gets scary when you're stuck in your ways Been feeling kinda hopeless Together but never fixed Wondering when I'll ever find the upbeat remix Feeling kinda homesick Feeling like I've been tricked Into thinking that I'm never gonna feel it Been feeling kinda helpless Feeling like a hot mess I don't wanna take the medicine just to feel less Just wanna feel less stressed Safer inside my head I'm filled with all these things they're telling me I'll be but instead Instead I feel hopeless I must be helpless I try to see the sunlight But the clouds block the bright side I wish I could get it back But it seems my past still fades to black Healing gets harder every time you're Over explaining everything cause no one sees what I see How my mind is a minefield a battle without a sword to wield Or even a shield or a bandage to heal All the wounds still bleed and they'll never see Can't manifest when I'm affirming this Been feeling kinda hopeless Together but never fixed Wonderin if I'll ever find the upbeat remix Feeling kinda makeshift Feeling like I've been tricked Into thinking that I'm never gonna be sick again But that sickness crept in It always creeps back in