You'd Let Me Drown

My gut instinct has always been real good So why could I not sense this mess, how could I not know you would F*ck the first girl you found pretty You'd choose a whore over someone witty, kind, and smart Yet I fall apart Now I've caught you in a loophole We make the cycle end I look at the clock, you look at it too I look back at you, and you pretend That I'm paranoid, another question you'd avoid You know you're wrong, which makes it worse How many times did you rehearse The lie you told me, one too many times You say I'm so sorry, it's not your fault it's mine And of course I fall in love again, and face away from the signs How do I keep doing this, I've built a world inside my bliss But it ain't bliss it's blindness You abuse my kindness Now we're dancing with our swords It's a metaphor of course I slice once, a cut is made on your side I know you lied, and so you force me To feel guilty, it's quite a trick, it's one that works I don't have to hold my breath This battle is to the death Make me cry, turn my tears to heroin Shoot it up, now you're addicted to me crying To get a fix, I know you'd go As far as you would have to go I don't want to fight this fight anymore To get a fix I know you'd bring me down To get a fix I know you'd let me drown My gut instinct has never been put to use I'm just worrying about results that haven't been produced The tune I sing is just pretend, there's no relationship to mend But I close my eyes again, back inside my world again Now we're swinging 'round the Christmas tree You'll never let me go I've let you win, you know you've won The fight is done, and I love you so If I ever fell in love with someone underserving of I know this is how it would go He's horrible and I love him so The boy in my nightmares The boy of my nightmares