Biggest Fan

Did it come out of left field I didn't mean for this to happen I can feel your heartbeat under my head As you process everything I never said Sorry I switched up on you But something's telling me you'll get bored if it's not new Am I the one with bloody hands Will it be me who takes the stand I think it's all my fault You made me into someone I couldn't be Someone who's so easy to please Easy to mold by other hands Til I'm a fraction of who I am Hope you know why I had to leave And how I wish you'd be what I need I'll always be your biggest fan But I don't think I'll ever understand Why you couldn't be Part of the plan Did you feel too vulnerable Were you afraid of what I'd find When I asked "what's on your mind" I could never say I was never honest Could you say the same, cuz you never promised I was always left hoping you wouldn't Make me into someone I couldn't be Someone who's so easy to please Easy to mold by other hands Til I'm a fraction of who I am Hope you know why I had to leave And how I wish you'd be what I need I'll always be your biggest fan But I don't think I'll ever understand Why you couldn't be The one who'd risk it all Be at my door without a call Tell me that I'm all you ever wanted But you had to go and leave me haunted by the picture perfect ghost of you Floating so far from the truth You were so afraid that you would fall You would rather lose me all in all