Hallucinating

They see me in my pinnacle intervals Even tho that they be minimal I chin a pill just to feel Antidepressants are clinical It's fixable innit chill The only fix unforgivable I've been on a hill and killed My emotions, made it livable Ah yeah Been a long road to get up here Been looking for gold, found a ton yeah But I'm hallucinating it is not there Life is never all clear, Life is never- Ah yeah Been a long road to get up here Been looking for gold, found a ton yeah But I'm hallucinating it is not there Life is never all clear, Life is never- Yeah I went in so many directions and so many caves I have seen so many perceptions and so many fakes Some people they won't care about you until you're in the grave Even if they see you with a shovel they'll think "he's just playing" I'm either digging my own grave or I'm digging for change Money, I'm digging for change above me I can't sit still If I got ADHD it's cause I Aim for the honey My decisions they are funny My hatred is deep in my tummy My dad he made me for money Probably bought a beer, "but he gave you life!" Yeah, and lots of fucking fears, depression all right But I just keep fighting these tears, keep going cause I Ah yeah Been a long road to get up here Been looking for gold, found a ton yeah But I'm hallucinating it is not there Life is never all clear, Life is never Ah yeah Been a long road to get up here Been looking for gold, found a ton yeah But I'm hallucinating it is not there Life is never all clear, Life is never