Some Thoughts on Love (Keep Trying)

Oh, I see I just can't believe The way you're changing me Just to see your pretty smile Even if only for a while I'll keep trying There are so many beautiful people out there who deserve so much love And I wish I'd given all of myself to at least one of you Because for years I've been too blind to see That the world isn't actually that cold And even though we're not all hugging all the time There's so much love And sure, There's so much loneliness too And there's loneliness in me And in you And I've got to wake up and realise I need to speak honestly, speak true I wish I could love you in a way where I'd never let go I wish you could teach me how to love you Like I do in my thoughts I ought to give it a try give you a smile At night, I find myself crying for every person who's never felt I truly loved them I want to go back in time and cook you breakfast when we wake up together I want to make sure we spend new years and every other holiday together and make sure we kiss, kiss more, kiss enough I want to go back and hold your hand during sad or scary movies But also everywhere and anytime else And I should've offered you my love when you were lonely, even though I was colder then And honestly, the cold made me feel alive, then But maybe I should've been alive for you, then Oh, I see I just can't believe The way you're changing me Just to see your pretty smile Even if only for a while I'll keep trying I wish we'd shared more desserts I wish we'd sat on more benches and told each other stories I wish I'd always held you when you cried at night I wish I spent less time telling you the world was shit I wish I spent less time being scared I wish I spent less time in the dark Looking for something that was right in front of me I've always wanted love And wanted to be love But I never managed to do it 'Cause it was terrifying for me to love and to be loved And saying you love someone is easy I've done it a million times and mostly meant it But loving someone is hard And being loved is maybe harder Knowing they're there when you need it And before you know you need it is Almost impossible But if I, at least I, keep trying my best to be The best I can be Maybe it's not only possible But real Your love made me want to be the best version of myself For you and for myself And I know My words are not love and Saying you're in love is not love and All the trying in the world is not love Unless you're trying From love Oh, I see I just can't believe The way you're changing me Just to see your pretty smile Even if only for a while I'll keep trying 'Cause you showed me so much love in the ways you tried And I always saw, even if I didn't know How to let it show Love was when you Tried to make me laugh Tried to make me smile It was when you Tried to remember the little things and Tried to remember the big things Tried to remember the things that scared me when I was little And the things that scare me now It was trying to remember if I liked you more in flat shoes or in heels And it was when you always looked hella cute in a skirt Love was when you tried to notice that I was trying It was trying to see that I did my best And giving me the benefit of the doubt It was when you were trying to see the best of me Even when that was still under lock and key You were always trying to love And I loved you for trying Oh, I see I just can't believe The way you're changing me Just to see your pretty smile Even if only for a while I'll keep trying You know what? I don't wanna run away anymore I wanna buy a little farmhouse in the country And get a flock of chickens I wanna wake up in the same bed Every day Next to someone who tries And I'm finally trying for Let's put on gloves and tend to the garden Let's put on wellies and walk through the mud in the danish summer rain Let's pick some berries and make jam 'till our shelves are full And then let's make some more for our neighbours and friends Let's still have days and days on the couch Watching our favorite films and holding hands And let's have nights where we dance To all our favorite bands Let's be mortal and let's be real Let's keep trying and Let our world heal I keep saying I never tried But I don't even know if that's true, all right? Maybe I was always doing the best I could Maybe I just didn't succeed as well as I would If I knew then What I know now And I could even make it rhyme But that's the thing about time It only comes when it wants and leaves too fast So we gotta keep trying to make it last I'll keep trying Cause I try to love And I really do love trying And even though I fail I've tried to write this album And it may come to no avail I hope I can tell you all I'm sorry Everyone I've hurt and left behind Everyone who met me when I wasn't kind 'Cause somewhere in here is a beautiful Something Who may one day write some beautiful words about you And maybe they're already written Maybe they're well hidden Between the lines Or in other times Oh, I see I just can't believe The way you're changing me Just to see your pretty smile Even if only for a while I'll keep trying But if I get a chance to love you truly I'll kiss you on the shoulder And draw star signs on your back with the tips of my fingers And I'll whisper nonsense when you cry late at night And I hope you get to see yourself as only a lover could ever see you As a person willing to try to love And who loves to try As an infinitely deep lake under a moonlit sky As a window into my soul and into everyone I've ever loved 'Cause parts of them pour out of me Every day In the small things And the big things And you know the rest I hope that the next time I love I'll try my best And if I ever need reminding I hope you'll remind me 'Cause I want to love you And thank you for trying to let me Oh, I see I just can't believe The way you're changing me Just to see your pretty smile Even if only for a while I'll keep trying Oh, I see I just can't believe The way you're changing me Just to see your pretty smile Even if only for a while I'll keep trying