Please Understand

I don't really wanna text you back It's four a.m. My brain has been shut down The room is spinning around "No, I don't wanna FaceTime either, it's 4 am" Ah f*ck Lying in bed I'm not thinking anything so don't ask me what I'm thinking Just tryna be your friend I don't think that it's a good call We will have nothing at all So don't even try to lure in my heart Don't fall in love with me I don't wanna be in love I've been hurt so many times Just in it for a good time Not in it for a long time So please understand, my friend Sorry if I had too much to drink I'm telling you this cause I think you deserve it My heart has been cut in pieces that won't heal up on their own I'm flawed in my soul Don't you dare Feel sorry for me Getting out of bed The water that I'm chugging in feels like lemon flavored gin Just get outta my head Why am I thinking about you We will have nothing at all So don't even try to lure in my heart Don't fall in love with me I don't wanna be in love I've been hurt so many times Maybe this is not a good time Haven't felt this in a long time So please understand, my friend So please understand