​believe in myself

I was losing myself eyes closed deathbed I see my mama ballin' beside my bed I know they're just bad dreams Or that's what I believed However as time passed by I feared it became my enemy The people I used to call friends All went their separate paths I wondered if I was the only one who worried I didn't want to hide my fear anymore The thought of what I had accomplished so far Only destroys me insideI just Wanna believe in myself I'm afraid of becoming a failure I just wanna believe in myself YeahIt's too early to say what I am An artist in the making but no killer If people are talking about role models They're talking about my brother Of course I couldn't admit it face to face It’s a true fact I can’t believe it He a leader and I’m not very vivid A thinker he maybe but I ain’t with it He a rare gem and I’m feeling CommonI just wanna believe in myself I'm afraid of becoming a failure I just wanna believe in myself yeah