Shiny

Oh I understand If this is way too complicated I get easily frustrated And I take it out on you I know I'm not easy I get scared I get defensive Probably push you to the deep end I just wanna stay in control I like it better when you're further away Cause then its harder for me to cause you pain I don't want you to see all the ugly underneath, no I just want you to think that I'm shiny Well I've gotten so good at Making everybody want me Yeah I'm pretty and I'm funny The perfect illusion But you Well you stayed a little longer Met my sister met my father Now its harder to put up a screen I like it better when you're further away Cause then its harder for me to cause you pain I don't want you to see all the ugly underneath, no I just want you to think that I'm shiny I never thought I had anxiety But I try to control everything Especially the reasons you want me If I don't sparkle in the sunlight do you think that you still want me Its so damn hard to believe I like it better when you're further away Cause then its harder for me to cause you pain I don't want you to see all the ugly underneath, no I just want you to think that I'm shiny I want everyone to think I'm shiny