12 Steps

12 Steps in front of me On the wall behind the one who speaks And I don't care about god or forgiveness Lonely all my life Angry most the time I've cried so many nights It was me who saved me Everyone is talking about Higher powers that I don't get Cause who are you when nothings left Guess there's something left And you have your clichè phrases Everyone says Talking like robots Manufactured by grace of god Or an author who wrote alot I just don't buy it It's not that I'm bitter I just think that people Need to stand on their own 2 feet But that's why I'm here I guess I feel fear I guess I wanna look up and believe there's something else But what if there's not I saw smiles in this place From people who have gone away I don't know if their okay But I hope they are Familiar faces every night When one don't show You never know If they relapsed Or if they died 12 Steps in front of me I'm negative And I stay angry I run to drugs over anything No control It's embarrassing And I wanna change Guess it's starts with 1 I am powerless Life is not okay But it will get better everyday I'm sorry to everyone in this place I really wanna believe in me