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Lighting up a cigarette I don't even smoke Flick the ashes on the floor Once again I hate the place I'm in Gave it up for you My throat feels rough I don't even smoke The nicotine is bitter And my time feels rushed Emotions bottled up You're moving away This is hard as f*ck Finally sober it's been months You watched me struggle It was painful Now you say  I still love you But it's through I can't be with you I gave it up for you The family The home The shitty life I always knew All for you The pills didn't keep you with me Alcohol didn't save us Now I smoke cigarettes But it's not really distracting And I know you're lookin at me Say something say something And you You could have saved us You could have made us work I would have saved us I would have made us work Just show me something different I know it's all irrelevant But you know you could have held me down If you had married me by now If you had married me by now I could've been yours I would've been yours Us against the world And we rushed too fast Should've gone too far Can't take it back It's just a paper But it feels like more You could have married me for sure I would've stayed. I would've fought for you For us I gave up everything Lost the life I knew Gave it up for you I fuckin loved you You just couldn't show me consistency God Help me I feel like I'm slipping into insanity Angry most the time Why am I crying Starting over again This should be easy This should be easy It should be easy It's not easy Lighting up a cigarette I don't even smoke Flick the ashes on the floor Once again I hate the place I'm in Gave it up for you I gave it up for you The family The home The shitty life I always knew All for you The pills didn't keep you with me Alcohol didn't save us Now I smoke cigarettes But it's not really distracting And I know you're lookin at me Say something say something And you You could have saved us You could have made us work I would have saved us I would have made us work Just show me something different I know it's all irrelevant But you know you could have held me down If you had married me by now I could've been yours I would've been yours Us against the world And we rushed too fast I could've been yours I would've been yours Us against the world And we rushed too fast You you could have married me and I I would have kept on tryng I would have kept denying That you weren't right for me You weren't right for me That you weren't right for me Weren't right for me