Junkie

Oh shit I'm a fuckin junkie Letting down everyone around me I couldn't stay stable Last night was really too hard to handle Oh f*ck I'm a joke Doing clown shit I never felt so low I cried all morning I feel depressed I think my serotonin depleted I scream into the void Or maybe that's in my head I feel pissed off I'm stumbling Yeah I heard you mention That I'm a little fucked up still Little fucked up still Don't pay attention To the way you saw me fall out in the kitchen It's embarrassing I fuckin hate me right now Or always I can't tell Oh shit I'm a fuckin junkie Letting down everyone around me I couldn't stay stable Last night was really too hard to handle Oh f*ck I'm a joke Doing clown shit I never felt so low Oh damn Celebration My guy got a new job I'm suppose to take him Oh bitch I can't drive right now Once again Letting everyone down Cross my fingers That the pill I'm taking Doesn't mix bad with resin Oh f*ck , I'm a fuckin problem, I wish that I wasn't I'm alone I'm alone I mean yeah there's someone But my head is really checked out I don't think the mix worked out Oh f*ck oh f*ck oh f*ck Yeah I heard you mention That I'm a little fucked up still Little fucked up still Don't pay attention To the way you saw me fall out in the kitchen It's embarrassing I fucking hate me Oh shit, I'm a junkie Pray to god, cause no one else will touch me I don't even believe In any higher power I probably write more Than I shower N A has me saying stupid shit Just to stay sober My ex still hurts me I'm accountable for nothing Woke up this morning Still fucked up on something My feet are dragging Going in circles Like I'm a rover Cross my fingers I just think I'm still hungover