Mask Off

I didn't anticipate this That I was gonna be here Drinking beer, smoking cigarettes with the lowest paycheck Man I thought that I would see clear- Where I wanted to go now What have I got to show now? If life would slow down, and let me figure it out I could acquire the know how The know how to change my habits around- And I don't even know why I don't why- I can't make a change. I can't change my ways Depression just runs in my blood and my brain Is this chain my fate? Maybe, or perhaps not Whatever I plot- Gets washed over by unkind thoughts Like is life worth living? Then I keep on drinking and I can't stop I can't control my emotions- And the feelings that I have and have fought Nah, so I gotta take my mask off Gotta escape this prison I'm way late to dinner Escaped the fear, but still living this chaos So stop asking how the f*ck I feel! I've battling my demons and this shit is real I'd search for happiness, the box is sealed Gotta leave it How's that for some mass appeal?! Let me take it off Let me take it off Let me take it off Let me take it off This is what I became from all the betrayals- Dumb bitches n low grades I'm sick of this whole thing Waking up in the morning sore and- Knowing that I'ma feel like shit for the whole day Never knowing if I'm gonna make it til the end of the month I wanna shine, yet I feel like I die for this low pay I'm sick of this God wanting me to obey But why do I say I'm fine when they ask if I'm okay? I don't know man That's why I got the music I put my heart into this, but to you it's amusement To me it's a gem Gotta polish it clean or I lose it. You know what I'm doing, how I'm living? You don't know crap, you're assuming You see Henny and diamonds on the gram- But the real underground rapper life is in front of a computer! Let me take it off Let me take it off Let me take it off Let me take it off