scared all the time

I gotta accept that I can't change the past And I know She was never coming back to me I get scared all the time So I just sit around and drink to fight I don't really know But I gotta fix my pride Only when I know what is right Hopefully one day I'll get back to it It was so hard To change my ways Everything I did was sealed to fate And I cut off so many real people You could paint my life on a fucking easel I got carried away Tryna chase that feeling I don't want to fall And go back to the way things were I don't trust anybody If I don't get up I'll just get left behind I gotta accept that I can't change the past And I know She was never coming back to me I get scared all the time So I just sit around and drink to fight I don't really know But I gotta fix my pride Only when I know what is right Hopefully one day I'll get back to it