Anxiety

I have this anxiety that Fucks up my head Try to stay wake up but your not in my bed Sometimes I think if it would be better if I was dead try to stay happy but I see all red Now I'm so hurt about what i said And I really miss you And I really want you And I hope I can see you again Maybe next time we can be more than just friends I said I really love you and you said just a friend You blocked me so my messages won't send My hearts broken but my heart won't mend I remember the last time we called i wasn't alone again But now i feel lonely as ever What happened to you can call me when ever In 10th grade I really loved you I thought I was clever You helped me through every endeavor I miss what we had Every single day I chased the bag And that was you But I know you never felt the same so it was true You never really knew how much I really love you I swear no girl was ever put above you Now let express what I need to get off my chest Because I Really loved you And I really miss you And I really want you And I really need you in my life 2 years and I want you to be my wife Once again tell me why This anxiety is making me depressed Every single day I wanna live less I can live life with all of this stress So let me tell you what's been on my mind You were the one countless times And you were the one that Inspired these line Countless amount of times you saved my life I've been in deep depression trying to survive I almost ended it all with a knife I don't wanna be sad because you're not in my life Walking down the halls helped me forget the pain Helped me fix the things I thought was a game you never said you felt the same When you said that it felt like I got hit with a train Endless nights thinking of you but you don't think the same I'm getting tired of seeing a blood stain on the couch Slit my wrist and now I gotta slouch So let me tell you about what I'm about What happened to me All this summer was agony Because I really loved you And I really miss you And I really need you in my life So once again tell me why Tell me why Tell me why Tell me why you don't want me And tell me why you don't love me And tell me why you don't want me in you're life