I Really Fucked This Up

Maybe I shouldn't do this Maybe I should think it through first Cause clearly I'm not thinking As I'm typing that fucking message And I hate that I fucking sent it I got in my car as you read it Cause I won't let myself ask questions No I'm not gonna second guess it I'm pressing my foot on the brake I shift it three times til the "R" is now lit I'm looking behind me and see no ones there So I'm backing out slowly my arms on your chair And I shift it again now I'm rolling it forward When I hit the gas I burst out with emotion I know what I'm doing but I cannot stop it I know that I love you but I'm driving to end it I get to your house I open the door And you know what is coming I hear that you're crying from the floor below you I walk up the stairs you're right there with my clothes on and tears pouring on em Before I can talk you are begging don't do it That we said forever and "I thought you meant it" I'm choking on words cause I don't wanna end it But I fucking did it without even thinking (Like you want a way for you to save me) You gave me everything And I threw it all away (You just stand there smiling while I'm breaking) Like I don't deserve your love So I stopped even trying for it (Why do you only love the pain) I know that I fucked this up Cause I didn't fight for us No I didn't fight for you I didn't fight for you (Give you every part of me worth taking) You gave me everything And I threw it all away (You come back just so you can break me) Like I don't deserve your love So I stopped even trying for it (Why do you only love the pain) I know that I fucked this up Cause I didn't fight for us I didn't fight for you (Oh) No I didn't fight for you