THIS CAN'T BE GOOD FOR ME

Couldn't even learn how to like my voice So I reached to deep inside and I felt white noise But it's never enough, tough, tell myself Astrid, got to learn to let it go Let it go, got to learn to let it go Almost fucking died a couple years ago From a shot to the heart, self inflicted at that Always give my damn best so I can never relax My whole world feels so different now I'm so sorry that I let you down, but It was out of my hands It was never my choice All those fucking words weren't even my voice I still wonder if you think about me Every single time I post, I still think about it Wonder if you heard my songs and what you'd think about it If you knew how many were about you I'm still overcame with all the doubt you Lit inside my soul when I had you Pick up all the pieces, f*ck I had to You don't wanna see me in a bad mood You don't deserve my attention Nor my time or my affection The public wants to rip me to shreds So I never give them ammunition So they can't f*ck me over Couldn't even learn how to like my voice So I reached to deep inside and I felt white noise But it's never enough, tough, tell myself Astrid, got to learn to let it go Let it go, got to learn to let it go Almost fucking died a couple years ago From a shot to the heart, self inflicted at that Always give my damn best so I can never relax I mean what the f*ck was that Every other night's another panic attack Fear I won't live up to my potential Even a day off could be so detrimental And that's real as f*ck, they never cared to ask So now they hold out their hands like I got money or something And then little by little creates another fucking character That I got to learn how to fit into Couldn't even learn how to like my voice So I reached to deep inside and I felt white noise But it's never enough, tough, tell myself Astrid, got to learn to let it go Let it go, got to learn to let it go Almost fucking died a couple years ago From a shot to the heart, self inflicted at that Always give my damn best so I can never relax