violated!

Six months since you still want the hoodie back I thought you'd get the memo when I never gave a text back Sorry, but I don't really feel bad Goddamn it, all my friends said it wouldn't last That was back in December, my blood went cold that winter My brain split from the center Fragment to remember Being held down Forced to take it Because you wouldn't take "No." as my answer F*ck, I like my liquor good with a chaser Like it's my hyper fixation I think you knew and took advantage of that You took advantage of me After that I felt so unclean, I had to scrub at my body for hours Just to try to make it feel right, feel right But it never fucking feels right, feels right Never in my life have I ever felt so violated, violated Had to take a couple months just to hide away, hide away Never in my life have I ever felt so violated, violated Had to take a couple months just to hide away, hide away See my body float above it Leave it empty You know you want it gone Oh, gone Oh God Oh, why do I, why do I do this to myself I can't say Honestly, I feel so strange Never got used to the pain Oh, tell me why you do that to me Ice cold veins Ever since it hasn't been the same, I can feel myself degrade I'm confined in the walls, suffocated by my loss I'm in awe about the cost, I guess I'll never be okay Never in my life have I ever felt so violated, violated Had to take a couple months just to hide away, hide away Never in my life have I ever felt so violated, violated Had to take a couple months just to hide away, hide away I can't say Honestly, I feel so strange Never got used to the pain Oh, tell me why you do that to me Ice cold veins Ever since it hasn't been the same, I can feel myself degrade I'm confined in the walls, suffocated by my loss I'm in awe about the cost, I guess I'll never be okay Never in my life have I ever felt so violated, violated Had to take a couple months just to hide away, hide away Never in my life have I ever felt so violated, violated Had to take a couple months just to hide away, hide away