i want to be special (to you and only you)

I'm always told that I should like myself But the hard part is convincing someone else It's not like I can tell them that I like them So it feels like I somehow have to trick them And I try hard Trying to look important But also laissez faire Like I don't like you But then again maybe I do Also, I don't care I check in with my friends before I text you I straighten out my posture when I see you I worry that I might look needy My motives and emotions are so buried And I try hard, Trying to look important But also laissez faire Like I don't like you But then again maybe I do Also, I don't care I want to be special to you, and only you I want to be special to you