Self-Questioning

Can I fix myself by ignoring it all By ignoring it all Does it help or does it make me fall Does it make me fall Can't be who I wanna be Feelings hiding can't get them free Can't be who I wanna be Anxiety rising don't wanna be seen It happens over and over again Everyone around me is happy but I just can't stand Messing it up for them so I start to pretend That I'm fine but in my head I'm like when will it end Cannot survive a day without my shield It blocks negativity creates my own force-field But when it drains out and is left with no energy The darkness rushes through hell just to get to me Can I fix myself by ignoring it all By ignoring it all Does it help or does it make me fall Does it make me fall Can't be who I wanna be Feelings hiding can't get them free Can't be who I wanna be Anxiety rising don't wanna be seen Should I keep going should I keep fighting Is it worth it someday we're all dying Wish I knew the answer maybe I would start smiling Wish I knew the answer I would start flying away All these thoughts up there do they make it worse Can't find an answer feel so cursed Who can I blame is it my fault Lost track of it please hit on hold Can't be who I wanna be Feelings hiding can't get them free Can't be who I wanna be Anxiety rising don't wanna be seen Can't be who I wanna be Feelings hiding can't get them free Can't be who I wanna be Anxiety rising don't wanna be seen Does it make me fall The darkness rushes through hell just to get to me