Worse

Talking 'bout it yeah right Imma do it in reverse Only hiding it not fixing it making it worse Trapping me inside of this eternal curse Guess I have to write down another verse Talking 'bout it yeah right Imma do it in reverse Only hiding it not fixing it making it worse Trapping me inside of this eternal curse Gonna write down another verse Give you a smile when you ask if I'm fine Sorry for doing that all that time I've been lying Also to myself 'cause I am denying That the last 2 years felt like dying Experienced a new sort of pain Feels like heartbreak but my heart ain't broken, I'm mentally slain What the f*ck will remain when my soul leaves my body Into the dark rain, 'cause it will Don't know if I will be here for much longer My mental doom just keeps getting stronger At first I thought it'd be great to finally meet To finally meet my monsters Now need distraction from my feelings every evening Otherwise my heart won't survive it is bleeding out Filling up that cloud with all my sins And all my doubts what is that about Talking 'bout it yeah right Imma do it in reverse Only hiding it not fixing it making it worse Trapping me inside of this eternal curse Guess I have to write down another verse Talking 'bout it yeah right Imma do it in reverse Only hiding it not fixing it making it worse Trapping me inside of this eternal curse About to write down another verse You don't know how I feel when I miss your call When the emptiness flies right back in my soul Completely destroys my hope and left over positivity Asking myself over and over if they'll be missing me But I don't wanna know the answer, I don't care This whole negativity is getting everywhere Spreading through my body through my veins to my heart Once again collapsing on my own in the dark Look at what you achieved, what you could become Well I don't give a f*ck 'cause that shit means nothing I feel numb Beautiful pain hiding your deepest concerns The only price to pay your soul it burns Guess it's a part of my life, don't want to accept it Won't let it ruin my world get intercepted Imma slit your throat and watch you burn you won't expect it Yeah right Imma do it in reverse Only hiding it not fixing it making it worse Trapping me inside of this eternal curse Guess I have to write down another verse Talking 'bout it yeah right Imma do it in reverse Only hiding it not fixing it making it worse Trapping me inside of this eternal curse Now my mind does not store another verse