Struggles

What are you thinking You say you love music But what do you want What do you really want Maybe I wanna change the world But its stubborn Can not change depression By pressing a button Let me tell you something That I can do All these tracks I ran through If you're seeing what I could be Thank you I dream about rhyming yeah But this a mountain I'm climbing With the sound I'm designing Barely off the ground But I found that I'm flying Everybody love it when it sounds good Yeah so I'm crafting every syllable How I'm stressing bout the future Feeling pitiful All this self expression Got me coming off as cynical Yeah But pride never gonna pay the bills The time I devote to honing skills Why when the loneliness can kill Do I find myself alone Writing patterns for the thrill And this the shit that keep me up Sniffing out the answers When I'm reeking of the bud Think I'd go insane Without the people that I trust Tryna find a reason Isn't feeling it enough I'm seeing rappers And they boasting all their earnings Look into their soul Find the passion and the yearning I love the world But that won't keep it turning Got me feeling less From these lessons I'm learning I wouldn't join in their games Just to get plays I don't care about the stats Got my head straight I ain't tryna do this Just to get paid But my soul don't mean squat When it's rent day But ain't nobody wanna hear About the struggles Peak behind the curtain And I'm certain that it's muddled I'm putting everything I got Into taking any shot But I'm never gon be something That I'm not I need support in what I do But I don't make this for you I gotta maintain sane When the payment is due And fading the view Amazing that display of the truth New shit hit the fans Let it rain in the booth I bet yall are wishing I would stick To the sick shit Discussing all my issues fix it Quick dismiss it Stick to the twisted limit I just hope they Let me visit acceptance Let me visit acceptance Yeah