Friends?

Are we, are you my friend? That's what you told me Before you left The ones we lost Are more remembered Than me who was here When my devotion was tender Shallow stranger You're the one I seek Yet all I do is enrage ya You thought I could Better myself But look at you now You're holier than thou What are we even about? You said you loved Me the most But we can see Who's here and who's the ghost Were you my friend at all? My real friends catch my fall The stars are lost Behind distractions Wanted to shine brighter Held back from fatal attractions Heartfelt effort This labor of love I gave Went drier than the deserts You thought I could Better myself But look at you now You're holier than thou What are we even about? You said you loved Me the most But we can see Who's here and who's the ghost Were you my friend at all? My real friends catch my fall Are you truly my friend? That's what you told me Before you left Let someone let me down again Hold all I have behind a fence The key to my happiness In someone else's pocket You thought I could Better myself But look at you now You're holier than thou What are we even about? You said you loved Me the most But we can see Who's here and who's the ghost Were you my friend at all? My real friends catch my fall