The Mask

Eaten alive by guilt and sickness I am forced, forced to reflect on my life I just want to hide the screaming child inside No one should see my real pain inside So just take a look at my smile Bound to my choices I feel fear and dread, fear and dread Darkness rejoices while the child inside me cries I want silence in my head I wear a mask the smiles and lies Underneath there is, there is just pain inside Don't want to show the face that I've been taught to hide It's not always the tears that show the pain 'cause sometimes it's the smile Bound to my choices I feel fear and dread, fear and dread Darkness rejoices while the child inside me cries I want silence in my head Smiling with tears in my eyes Wearing that mask of disguise Hiding my demon child my natural decay Its own deceit, a refraction of my fading light Too afraid to take it off No more fear, just silence